hmmm

i just typed out a long blog and deleted it because i really didn't say anything.

all it comes down to is i feel disconnected, like i don't belong anywhere.

blah.

i feel like...

posting a happy blog. honestly i don't think i really have anything to say. that's probably the reason i haven't posted anything in like 37 years. i don't have an clever anecdotes like the ones i love to read.

i just watched into the wild again. man i love that movie. and i definitely need to get the soundtrack. i really like the quote at the end of the movie (aka anaoshak's profile line that i just connected like 2 months ago) "happiness is only real when shared." i think i've finally got myself together enough here at school that i'm starting to make some real friends. i know this may sound hopelessly sad as the year is almost 3/4ths over, but its been weird for me being able to come home to my comfort zone whenever i felt like it.

now i feel like i'm ready for some real change.

i'm rambling. maybe i'll post a blog worth reading when its not almost 3 am and i'm hyper from nearly 40 ounces of arizona lemon iced tea (tastes delicious, smells like ass)

i am...

AWKWARD. (almost as good as iron man)





and going to start working on some things.
oh yeah, and http://one0onein1001.blogspot.com/

let's run away together.

i'm not ready to face the next week.

confusion.

i just spent a weekend reading watchmen, feeling possibly the most like a preteen boy as i ever have (with the exception of iron man), then last night i stayed up until 4:30 reading new moon, feeling the most like a preteen girl in a long time. And all of this when i have over 15 drawings to do, plus everything for my other classes. what the hell is wrong with me?

she needs to sort out her priorities.

anyone who gets that reference just made my day.

so i really should be working right now. it's a little ridiculous how much stuff i'm going to have to do tonight. but i'd pretty much rather be doing anything else.

i'm still a little surprised at myself that i went to daniel's last night. that i drove all the way home and didn't come back until 5 am when i knew i had a ton of stuff to do. i used to always do my homework first, made sure i went to bed at a decent hour, and if there was extra time i would hang out with my friends. but now that has completely changed. i will basically hang out with people no matter what, i even watch youtube videos for an entire day instead of hauling my ass to studio. i feel like senioritis is setting in a year late.

so i end up staying later and gettting less done. but at the same time i don't really mind, because i feel like people matter more than another site model. i can't decide if i'm losing sight of what i should be doing or i'm finally figuring it out.

gah.

i skipped class this morning but just slept the whole time.

it rained today... but stopped after like 1 minute.

i hate being ditched.



i don't have enough to say to write a real blog.

maybe tomorrow will be better.