i can't think of a good title.

so formal was yesterday. it definitely had its ups and downs. pretty much everything that could have gone wrong did, but then were still some really fun (and classy) moments. when i was on the verge of a breakdown i realized something. i could just sit there and let everything bad ruin my night, or i could make myself have fun. (haha that kind of reminds me of the coffee bean story the hodges sub told us...) but i figured out i'm not always going to just be happy, sometimes i have to force the happiness until it is real. i can't be bitter forever. but that also means i might have to step up and actually face some of the things that bother me most...