i'm laughing because i hope he's wrong.

the combination of this weather and my lack of school makes it feel like summer. but no, i have to go back to school tomorrow.

this extended weekend has been very fun. refugio was amazing as always. but in some ways it seemed a little weird. like we're too old to go run around in the bushes like we used to but then we aren't old enough to party it up with the family either. but laying on the beach looking at the stars has to be one of my favorite feelings. i just wanted to be swallowed up in the calm. but with all this peace and quiet left me a lot of time to think. something i'd rather not be doing to be honest. but i realized i'm going to have to be a much stronger person than i have been. i'm going to have to take care of myself because i'm going to college and who knows who i can trust. (the large chunk of charlotte simmons i read also influenced this) but then again i don't think i can only care about myself. as i've said before i depend a great deal on other people. i think the hurt i experience along the way is worth the even momentary happiness. people are all that really matter and i usually can find the bit of good to make it worthwhile.

saturday was absolutely insane... i'm surprised i made it through the whole day. from going to bed at 2 to waking up at 7 for a 2 1/2 hour drive (which has almost completely turned "iddin gibbon" to "ending given"... i think i need a new cd) then to actual prom. prom was good minus my inability to breathe from both my dress and the unbearable heat on the dance floor. then of course the after after after after after after after after parties (yes, eight in total) with everything from rock band and slurpees to finally seeing baby mama (which was very cute but scared me just a bit at the same time)

and now... back to school. thank god for late start.