letters.

dear ______,
i sincerely miss you. i know i have screwed things up, let other people's opinions become my own and i'm sorry for that. but i'm trying to change that. i hate not having someone to talk to. i want to try to tell you everything, but i don't even know where to start. because like it or not, there are things i cannot tell you. but my stuff is so wrapped up in that stuff that i cannot separate the two. and i was kind of hurt by the fact i was replaced. i guess i didn't leave you with much of a choice, but it still hurts.

dear _______,
man just when i thought things were getting back to normal, you throw me for another loop. i have no clue where i stand with you and i feel like now i have to always be somewhat on edge. if you could just be honest, completely brutally honest, it would really help. i want to be your friend, but you need to be happy too. i worry that you don't give your own feelings enough credit.

dear _____,
what happened? i thought we were friends but apparently i am replaceable when things don't work out perfect. i get a really weird feeling from you. i don't know what it is but something is just not totally right.

dear _______,
i don't know quite what to make of you. sometimes i think we are really good friends and sometimes i get the feeling you really don't want to be around me. i really want to be able to tell you stuff, but it's so complicated. and i feel like i shouldn't bother you with it because you have more important things to worry about. but i'm really going to miss you.

dear ________,
you worry me. you have to know that there are a lot of people who care about you. but it seems like you keep going after the wrong things. i want to be friends with you, even if i don't show it sometimes.

dear ________,
open up! i want to help you because you shouldn't keep everything bottled up. i think we could have a better friendship than we do.


well, i could go on but i really want to read some more charlotte simmons.
and yes, i am ranting. if you don't like it you can suck it. =]